REVIVAL: "april thoughts"

  First off, I would like to start off by saying that I like to stay silent with my thoughts a lot because I’m not one to express my feelings only to have them seem irrelevant or unimportant to the person I’m speaking to.  I refuse to speak my mind if yours is made up, especially if it feels insatiable at times.  I’m aware that I’m not the favorite nor am I trying to be, but I rarely get credit for being reliable and that hurts me the most.  It also bothers me that we rarely acknowledge, recognize, or compliment the things that are done right and that no matter what I do nothing feels good enough.  Even when I go out of my way to get things done without announcing them, I’m being accused of “disappearing” rather than thinking I’m being productive somehow.  Being prepared and ahead of things on people rarely touch up on is something that I like doing.  I am also not particularly fond of having to be spoken to in front of an audience, I would really prefer one on one interactions.  I do like being reliable and trusted by others because they know that I am not one to easily say no, I’m not one to simply turn down a job that a superior gives to me.

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- This was written on 4/5/19 as a rebuttal after my job sat me down and tried to reprimand me on my less than appreciated job performance.

- I wrote this because I refused to speak as a form of retaliation or being reactionary, it was from this day forward that I took "the oath" more seriously.

- One month after writing this, I changed my position at my job.

- The incidents of "no vacancy" happened the very next day after writing this to myself.

- "Stay Silent and Keep It Moving" was my motto for 3 months after this.

- The photo is a quote I saw from an episode of "Futurama", it's the final line from that episode as well.