t.i.c.k. (the inner cognitions of kaiography)

  Every sunrise or sunset that I’ve witnessed brings forth a sensational warmth and rejuvenation to the body that’s difficult to explain, although it’s temporary I never have an issue going out of my way to capture this moment because it’s still one of those monumental things that’s worth the trip. Every once in a while I will see a couple basking in the view together, I used to wonder what sharing a moment like this with someone else would be like but not as much as you’d think. It doesn’t have to be romantic but it could be just sharing a moment like this with someone important, this was something that sparked when a friend recently revealed about watching the sunrise with a girl he used to be involved with. I was taken aback by him speaking about her like this because I was relieved that he shared not only a positive moment but a special one with her, despite their differences this meant something to him. This made me reflect on moments I had like this before and there were hardly a

    This was not the ideal way I wanted to speak about someone who just turned half a century, but at the same time, I'm thankful they've been on this earth for so long.  It's been almost 2 years since I've spoken to them, liked a post, called them, anything.  Saying that my life is better without them is an understatement because it’s not necessarily true, but being without them forced me to love myself a little harder.  The last we spoke she asked me if I hated her, even though the answer is still no… I just feel that we weren’t fit to grow together.  She was one of the most insatiable people I’ve ever been involved with, always making me feel like I was never good enough for her even though she wouldn't do the same for me.  Between her and the girl before her that I was involved with for so long they both made me feel like I wasn’t good enough for anybody, and that forced me to be comfortable with being alone for so long.     One night in December, I woke up in t