t.i.c.k. (the inner cognitions of kaiography)

    I’m very careful whom I share my happiness with these days, that’s one of the biggest issues about being a loner. For years I’ve kept my birthday a secret to a large number of friends for mysterious and somewhat selfish reasons, but in recent years those reasons have drastically increased. “Don’t be a stranger” is a phrase that I’m not particularly fond of, those who say it to me miss my company but wouldn’t reach out on their own to try to connect with me. That’s how I feel about my birthday, (to me) it feels forced whenever they reach out wanting to reconnect only for it to never happen then they’ll reach out again to say the same thing as they did last year. I also have a relative who forces our birthday dinners with us, I decline their offers because I don’t like to be celebrated with something we could’ve been doing regularly. I keep my birthdays private because I’m very cautious as to who would appreciate my time with them, I’d like to spend time with those who want to and no

    It’s almost been four years since I’ve been riding solo without someone by my side, it has been an amazing four years but it’s also been an interesting four years as well.   I’ve learned so much about myself doing things alone to where men and women alike question how I’m doing so much solo, it’s more to prove that I could venture alone more so than anything else. Ladies tend to question if traveling or doing other big adventures alone gets lonely, the truth is that it does at times but I try my absolute best to not think about it to try to focus on a grander experience. Another big thing I’ve learned is that couples tend to look to me for guidance or advice about their relationships, though I remind them about how I’ve failed with relationships before they still seem to admire how I treated my previous partners (the good parts) and wondered how I would handle the situation they were in if I were them. I learned a lot as their "therapist", but it also shined a light on so