t.i.c.k. (the inner cognitions of kaiography)

   I try not to be a creature of habit for the most part depending on what the circumstances are, but when it comes to my birthday that’s when I’m extra delicate when it comes to how I'd like to spend my time.  It’s been 5 years since I celebrated my special day with someone else so I’ve had no problem riding solo since then, just let me do the same 2 things I normally do on my birthday and we’ll be straight.  There are particular reasons why I kept my birthday private by providing the wrong date to others, and one of those reasons was to have no interpretations throughout the day.  The fewer people the better is how I see it, because I know if I ride by myself I can’t be disappointed.  That changed this year when some ladies found out what day it landed and wanted to spend time with me on my birthday, the foolish part about this is that I was clumsy enough to let my guard down believing it would happen.   I can’t get mad at what happened entirely because life happens and you can’t

    I turned 38 last week, even though a good friend gave me this journal I’m writing on before my birthday I was stood up twice by two other friends on my special day.   Feeling defeated by the other girls, I received something in the mail the following day.   It was a birthday card that arrived late, that actually lifted my spirits much more than I anticipated.   I messaged her immediately and told her I was grateful she did that, and that’s why I’m dedicating this first page to her.   - Written after " candles for one ", but as a positive. - First thing written in the journal I received for my birthday - The title is a reference to our birthdays