Anybody that's crossed paths in my life more times than most will be implanted with an impactful impression of music, it's to the point where nobody meets me without learning something new and this goes twice as hard for the ladies that I’ve been involved with my life. My ear is trusted among many where they can’t wait to discover someone new and to hear why it impacts me the way it does, I love this part of hearing new music because I can hardly keep it to myself. One Thursday night in July was one of those cases where a musician that I followed and shared his music with among others (especially with the ladies that were in my life) came to a head in store for an unlikely reunion, one where we all should've seen coming.
When I arrived at this event I immediately met up with one of the staff who was assisting the performer, we sat down for a minute to discuss what they wanted me to do as for as the direction of how they wanted the shots to be captured. I was looking around as we were chatting and I recognized a familiar figure nearby, I was in disbelief but I had to accept that it was the girl whose birthday was in January. Even though it was a free event I asked myself: "Why is she here of all places?" It was at that moment that my practical thinking kicked in and I told myself that it was because I introduced this musician to her during our time together, but I never would've thought it would impact her to the point to come to this event. We haven't spoken in months, but I still tapped her on the backside to let her know I was there out of respect. A little while later I found out that her daughter was also there, so I introduced her to the musician up close and personal. When the mother arrived, although she was happy that this moment was happening she leaned to my ear and asked: "Why are you doing this? I thought you hated me". I replied: "I'm not doing this for you, I'm doing this for her". I would dive more into this part but I'll leave that for another time). As the show began they kept getting drinks, so much so that they couldn't even stay for the remainder of the show. This bothered me seeing that they weren't able to this the musician I introduced them to perform, I was glad they got to meet him but it would've been nice if they stayed. As the daughter was texting me with apologies due to their departure, things were about to get more interesting.
From time to time, I was in charge of being at the merchandise booth selling shirts and records to fans that were interested in purchasing something. In the middle of helping someone with an item, I saw a very familiar face walk inside. We locked eyes for a good 3 seconds to make sure this was really happening then we kept it casual as if it never happened, I hadn't seen the girl whose birthday was in June for almost 3 years and it took us this long to finally cross paths. She proceeded to walk towards the stage and I was still at the merch table, but I did look to see where she was so I could avoid being around that area. But to be honest, I was happy she was there to watch a performer we both loved to listen to since we hadn't seen him in about 4 years. Unfortunately, I noticed that she was absent shortly before the headliner got to perform. Once again, another pair of eyes that won't get to see someone they love to get to play. There's no denying that she most likely left because of me, whether she feared that I would approach her or some kind of guilt wasn't important because I just cared that she was there to support the musician. Even though he played a fantastic show, deep down I was a little heartbroken that the girls I introduced him to didn't stay to watch him perform.
If there's one takeaway I learned from this experience it's that the impression I make on others is far bigger than I thought, especially when it comes to music. I took the day off from work the following morning so I could register and come to terms with everything that happened at once, I learned that even though I was happy to see the girls again but I was more thrilled to learn the soundtrack I left them with still sticks with them. I would hate for someone to listen to an artist that I love and it makes their blood boil because that's unfair to the artist as well, but it if makes them feel good despite our ending then that's the part I'm more proud of. When I listen to their favorite songs I hope for the best for them and I hope when they listen to mine I'd like for them to do the same.
-Posted exactly 1 month after the night of the event
-The title pays homage to what the girls zodiac signs are represented as on a tarot deck
-Photo is where the event took place
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