interlude: winter's checkpoint

  Seeing that this is my 50th entry (46 stories though), I just wanted to take a moment to thank my imaginary audience for allowing me to speak my mind and for being patient with me since I’m aware that I keep repeating the same topics. I also would like to applaud myself for being able to speak my thoughts in a way for others to (hopefully) understand, writing down my emotions has been helping me come to terms with what’s going on internally.  The holidays were lonely last year because I did not want to start my decade alone but I got through it, I say that because I’m hopeful for a more positive outlook on things after that. I would like to reassure my imaginary audience that everything that’s written is not spoken out of anger or any kind of animosity, I try to not rush entries because I’m so stuck in the moment and I don’t want to lose my thought (and often don’t want to revisit them either) but a lot of stories take some time for me to finish.  Recently, a few close people have been confiding in me with their feelings and it’s been interesting that people trust me with advice on love and friendship even while I'm battling my own emotions.  The emptiness that I’m carrying right now is something I’m not showing to others, but by doing that it gives me a chance to collect my thoughts and open up to this platform.  I’d like to go a little deeper with what I plan to write about soon, so please bare with what I’m about to express.  Thank you for reading, thank you for your patience… most importantly.. thank you for listening.