t.i.c.k. (the inner cognitions of kaiography)

 It's hard to believe that the year isn't even half over and yet I'm afraid to see how the rest of the year is going to turn out. With having 2 family deaths back to back, who could? By having my grands pass away on my dad's side of the family, I felt like I should reconnect with the side of the family that I rarely kept in contact with. During my grandmother's last days, I saw her as much as I could, and the family knew that. Regrettably speaking, I had the impression that I reconnected with my family during this time of need, even though they felt it was my fault that I was never around. Around the time of my grandmother's death, the family seemed stuck without direction, and I was more than willing to help out as much as I could, and they wanted it too. But somehow, after the funeral I tried to keep in contact with my folks and guess what? Nobody responds. They asked me to stay in touch and they let it go. I'm doing what the next person would do during a